The Wheels on the Bus Go 'Round and 'Round

I continue to feel less and less like writing. (Yet here I am.) It seems like one of those things from my childhood that I got in my head that I had to do it. I always wanted to be a writer.  At some point in my early childhood, I was around people who would have regarded that as an admirable accomplishment. Now, I put slightly less credence in the idea that I'm a Libra and therefore like books, but who knows--that might be a true statement as well. At any rate, I find myself wondering if I feel like it's something I'm supposed to do, even if after all this time I haven't really done much.  Maybe that is what I should be looking at.  Know me by my fruits, to paraphrase a wise man.

Yet, writing is a lot of work. It's not that fun sometimes. More and more, actually. Maybe that's it. Maybe I'm just old and tired. And there is that whole thing about the lack of instant feedback. Photography is kind of the same way, but only kind of. Music is the exact opposite, or it feels like it is. I don't play in front of an audience, though, so "feedback" is kind of a moot point, but I hear the music, like it (or don't like it,) and it's done and will never come back, so I just have to play some more.

I doesn't seem like I have much to say. That would be why one writes in the first place, isn't it? It seems more and more likely that I'll never think of anything that hasn't already been thought of, and possibly written down. Maybe, for me, writing is like air-guitar. I used to like the way it made me feel, but it is essentially an empty avocation. I would love to have something to say. I was thinking about this the other day when I ran across an article, and had a subsequent conversation with a writer, about the art of plotting. I remembered seeing lots of articles online about plotting, and story elements and character development, and all that good stuff. The thought I had was, with all these books and articles, a lot of people must want to figure this out, obviously not because they have a story to tell (if they did, they wouldn't be looking at articles on how to create stories) but because they want to write and are in search of something to write about. Odd. Sort of.

I still may do it.